I read every one of your posts.....in fact, I have them catalogued and crossreferenced by date and subject. I have filled the basement with the printouts, and have had to make space in the attic for the rest, going so far as to having extra support beams installed just to hold the weight. Sometimes, at night, when I'm alone, and no one else is around, I sneak down.....or up, whatever the case may be.....and reread them....over and over again and again. Then....when the moment is right, and I feel like I'm ready to explode.....I quietly